Third round of medicine. March 9-13
Monday June 10: Told Dad and Mom
Thursday June 19: My first consultation this morning with the doctor but what ya know I don't see the doctor.. I had more blood work and another test but the doctor won't get final results until tomorrow or it may even be Monday before she knows anything. The gnawing sense that something is not right is not far from our minds.
What I have read is:
hCG levels may be tested to check the rate of rise, they normally double about every two days in a normal pregnancy
What they are telling us is that mine are not rising.
Thursday July 3: Dad and Mom came by the bank and took me to my doctor appointment. I had to make a decision today.. To terminated the pregnancy due to there being no fluid in the the sack. They say it is just the beginnings of an embryo that never developed a heartbeat. We were looking so forward to sharing our lives with this little one. It would have been so wonderful too.
Saturday July 5: Dad called me about 5am from Jackson Mississippi to wake me to go have the D&C performed today. Tracy and Kevin took me. The procedure went well they said..
By Sharon Reeve
No one understands
People avoid it
Don't know what to say,
try as they may
it's always the same,
The hurt is still there
it doesn't get better,
They say you've got time
to try for another,
People don't get it
they don't understand
I've just lost a life
that can't be replaced,
the harder I try
the harder it gets,
I just can't move on
i don't want to forget,
My baby was real
If only to me,
Why does no one else
understand how I feel.